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This is my latest piece. As of now I have no title. Once I figure one out I'll update it.

For those who don't know, life has been quite hard for my family and I recently. We moved back to our home state and 5 days later my husband ended up in the hospital. After surgery we discovered that he had colon cancer. He is now halfway through chemo. I haven't had much focus for anything, even art. It is hard for me to sit still, read, concentrate, remember anything. My focus is shot.

A couple weeks ago I decided to throw some coffee on some paper and just see what happened. Because I can't keep my focus I jumped from one medium to another, had absolutely no direction, and I honestly had no thought in it whatsoever. I was just keeping my hands busy and hoping to keep my mind busy as well. I have discovered that my mind is my worst enemy right now, causing fear to swell and overwhelm, so I try to keep my mind from being idle. I had to let the coffee dry so I went outside and built a snowman with my kids. The next day I threw on some watercolor paints, not even really caring where it went. I started seeing some weird forms take shape over the next couple weeks and I wasn't even sure I liked what it was looking like, but I kept at it because I really didn't care what happened. After the watercolor I used acrylic, then ink, then some more watercolor, then I threw on more coffee, went back to ink, used colored pencil, used graphite, and ended with ink.

So nevertheless to say I don't know what to make of it, much less what to say about it. It's a piece that made itself. Or maybe it's what happens when a blank mind is let loose. I leave it up to you, the viewer, to discover what you want in it.

The colors are off slightly in this photo. I can never get them accurately. If I get a better shot I'll update it.

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Medium: Mixed media
Size: 12x18 inches